Let me be able to hold myself gently

 I was rushing and struggling to break out into the world,

Struggling to bloom open.

But now,

Before I bloom,

Let me be able to hold myself gently,

As a bud will hold its petals,

The beautiful, unrushed fragility and compassion for oneself.

Let me be able to no longer chase and struggle,

relationships and dreams.

Let me be able to rest and hold myself gently,

As a bud will hold its petals.

Let things come to me.




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